How great is our God? Well he is pretty darn great!!

I am so overwhelmed with all that is going on in my spiritual life, God is just revealing so much to me about who he is and how to live life for him and like him. He is changing me and I am shaking writing this and on the verge of tears because I just don't know how to even start or what to even say because its hard to write down. I have this bubbly, excited, jittery joy in my stomach but I don't know how to express it. I wanted to come on here and see if I could just try and get some of it down and hopefully, God will sort it all out as I write. I also pray that as I write this, God would plant something in you or teach you something new or that this would encourage you in some way, so I don' know if any of this will make any sense, but I hope God uses what I have and make sense out of my jittery mess.

I think God started this work within me just before Limitless Festival Online, I had started reading my bible a lot more, I had been reading Galatians and doing a few bible plans/devotions on the bible app and I didn't realise at the time what God was actually doing and how much he was teaching me and preparing me for. I did feel little changes within me as I was reading the devotions and Galatians, but like I didn't take any big notice of it.
Anyway, Limitless Festival Online happened, which was amazing by the way, even though it was sad that we couldn't go for real, God still did some amazing stuff and it still felt like Limitless Festival. On the first night, Tim Alford spoke on 1 Thessalonians 4:11 which reads about making it your goal to lead a quiet life. Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, don't spend time in the morning with your phone before you spend time with Jesus. Going on your phone first thing in the morning is 1. Putting your phone before God and 2. clogging up your brain with all the stuff of the world leaving only a little bit of space for Jesus and the Spirit when you finally come to the word of God. So, at the end of Tim's preach, he made us promise/declare that, in the morning, we would spend time with God alone before we spend any time with our phone. I managed to do it. I thought it would be harder than it actually was. God gave me an open heart to listen and then carry through what I had learnt, so that morning I read Romans 1, each morning after I have read a chapter of Romans a day and my gosh how God has revealed more and more about himself each time which only makes me want to know more and more.

On holiday I only missed one day of reading Romans, but God did not miss any day of speaking to me. I was on social media one day while on holiday and someone had reposted something on their story. It said something along the line of 'we don't run on feelings, if we only wanted to feel God, then it wouldn't be a relationship, we should want to KNOW God.' This just hit me hard because almost every day I pray that I would be able to feel God and from the moment I read this on Instagram I knew I had been doing my relationship with God wrong. So I started to pray about knowing him in every day, that he would reveal more about who he was and that I wouldn't run on feelings or wanting to feel him, but know him as my father and best friend. Now I know and feel as though I actually have a relationship with him, I know more of who he is and who is to me and my heart is constantly burning for more and more its so overwhelming.
I think instead of only telling you that God has revealed who he is to me, I thought I'd tell you and hopefully, he will reveal himself to you too. 

Who is God? He is the Holy one who is so much higher than us. He sits in his throne in Heaven that is higher than space and higher than the space of space. He knows everything, he is omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent. Time is literally in his hands, beginning to the end and everything in-between. He holds the plans for your life and says that they are so so good.
God loves us, me, you more than everything on this earth. He loves you so much that he loved you while we were still, STILL, sinners. He sent his son, his only son to die for you so that you could be close to him and be called his daughter and son just as Jesus is. Through Jesus, we find the love that God has for us. Through Jesus, we are brought closer to the one in Heaven who made us. Who are we to say that we are greater than the one who literally formed us in his hands. There is a verse in Romans 9 that says "Should the thing that was created say to the one who created it "Why have you made me like this?" When a potter makes jars out of clay, doesn't he have the right to use the same lump of clay to make one jar for decoration and another to throw garbage into? In the same way, even though God has the right to show his anger and his power, he is very patient with those whom his anger falls." - Who are we?? Who are we to question God's righteousness? To question his ways? There is another verse in Romans 11 that I love which says " Oh, how great are God's riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways!"
Through my life I know God's ways have never failed, so I do not question them for God is faithful, He is the only one who will be faithful to you your whole life. Others will fade in and out, but remains the same and always faithful. Through the times I was fading in and out of my relationship with Christ, he never ever left me for he promises to always be with us!! He is the keeper of promises, he will never leave you, the bible says "Do not be afraid" May your confidence and hope be in the one who will never leave.

Who is God? He is the one and only, he is the king of the throne, he is my everything, he is 3 in one, he is father, spirit and son. He is the one who deserves the glory, who deserves the ones he created, who deserves all of us, even if we have nothing, he just wants us. He loves you as you are, but he loves you too much to let you stay as you are.

Summer Holiday 2020

I don't think any holiday will compare to our Holiday in Menorca last year, but this year in Weymouth was pretty good. Plus we had pretty great weather for it and all the thunderstorms managed to miss us.

This was a camping holiday, so the first day mostly consisted of almost a 6-hour journey, putting tents up and then having dinner with my Nana and Grandad in their garden, but to top off the day, we also went for an evening stroll around Weymouth beach as the sun was setting behind some buildings. Oh also, this same night we found out my bro got engaged!!! I'm so happy and excited for him, it is very exciting news, but maybe I'll write more about that in another blog.

 

 

First nights are always rough when sleeping in tents and there was so much noisy wind, so I basically got about 4-5 hours sleep with lots of waking up in the middle. But, a bad sleep didn't stop me from having a great day. Day 2 was a walk around Blue Pools, beach and fish and chips for dinner. 

Day 3 I think was my favourite day. We headed over to Portland Bill in the morning. It was beautiful blue water and a really hot sun, definitely the day in which I got burnt. After our walk around the lighthouse, we had some lunch and traveled over to Chesil beach where we spent the rest of the day. I swam in the wonderfully clear water, skimmed some stones, played with a super cute border collie, and got sunburnt some more. 

 

 

In the evening we had a nice dinner spent with our Nana and Grandad at a cute little restaurant. It was a load of fun and good food too. And then when it got really dark we star gazed which is just my absolute favorite activity to do when away, mainly because trying to stargaze in Liverpool is difficult because of all the street lights.

 

Pictures of the stars aren't the best, but best I could get.

Day 4 was an early rise for me. I got up early enough to climb one of the hills and see the end of the sunrise. It was so peaceful and I could see the sea and all the surrounding hills, It was just a great few moments being still with Jesus.

We spent the morning walking around Sandworld looking at some incredible sand sculptures.

The detail in some of these sculptures is crazy!!

For the afternoon we headed back to Chesil beach to do some paddle boarding and kayaking. This was so much fun and I was actually pretty good at it. I did the paddleboarding and actually managed to stand up. My little bro also did paddleboarding but fell in like 22 times trying to stand up, and if he did manage to stand up, he soon after fell back in the sea.

 

 

 

After dinner a few of us, including me, headed back up the hill I went up in the morning, only a little further, and watched the sun go down. On our way back down the hill, we also got to see some bats fly very close to our heads.

 

 

Day 5!! Today was a bit rainier. Our friends also left us and traveled over to the Isle of White to have the rest of their holiday. Even though it was a bit grayer in the sky, we still had a great day. We went into town, I bought a new hat, we got soaked in the rain and had some great Mexican food for lunch.

 

 

 

That was basically it for day 5, it basically rained for most the day so we could only get one activity done. We just chilled in the tents and got some well-needed sleep.

Then came day 6. Our Last day camping and we went golfing, or mini-golfing anyway. I actually didn't do that bad, but we didn't really keep score, after all, its the fun that counts.

 

We went back to our Nana and Grandad's for one last meal with them before we left and then headed back to the tents for our last night of chilling.

Day 7 was actually a lot of fun too. In the morning we got packed down and into the car by half nine and then had Macdonalds for breakfast. On our way home, we headed to Oxford to have a barbecue with friends. We were supposed to camp in their garden for the last couple of days of our holiday, but it ended up being way too wet and thunderstormy to do that in Oxford, so we opted for a barbecue with them on our way home. We got home about nine-ish and slept well that night after a fantastic holiday.

 

Then that's the end. I actually think this holiday goes on my list of one of the best, although I do love all our holidays mostly. There was just something really beautiful and special about this one, we got to do lots of fun things and it just felt great to be out of Liverpool for a while. It was also great to see my Grandparents and friends in Oxford. I think just after the whole pandemic thing, the holiday just feels different and special in a way other holidays haven't.

I hope you enjoyed reading about my holiday, I certainly enjoyed writing about it. I'm probs going to be writing on here again very soon because something verrry exciting is happening and I want to talk about my bros engagement a little more as well, so speak soon.

BeeBee

xxx