Immanuel - God with us

December 1st, and so begins the countdown to one of the best days of the year!! I am so excited for Christmas because when am I not? but also because it's been ten years since we went away for Christmas with our extended family. Mostly it has been a tradition to spend boxing day with the extended family, but ten years ago we actually went away for Christmas and stayed in this house thing and it was a lot of fun. This year we are all a lot older obviously, but for some reason, I feel like that's what is gonna make it that much better. The only sad thing is, it could be our last Christmas where it's possible for us to all be together without the oldest ones being occupied elsewhere, so this year, its gonna be special in so many ways.

Anyway, I didn't come to talk about my excitement for Christmas, instead, I wanted to talk about how recently I have really been feeling the presence and peace of God and I really can't express my love and utter aw and wonder for Him enough.

My college assessments are coming up this week. Monday and Tuesday I have my theory writing assessment, on Wednesday I have my practical assessment and Friday I have my mock exam and in just 5-6 weeks I have actual exams. This is all scary as heck and literally, every day I go into college at the moment one of us in my friendship group will be stressing and having a mental breakdown. For me though, the stress is different, like my friends have actually cried over the amount of stress that is overwhelming them, but for me, there is a sort of peace about the stress I'm feeling. Over this year I have gone through so much, whether that's physically, mentally or spiritually. I have gone through physical battles of myself, I have gone through battles of the mind, but also through battles with God and his calling for me, but through it all, God has been the one I go to. Even when I was battling Him, He would be the one I talked to, He would be the one who understood, the one who wanted to listen, who was there and present and helping me to understand, He was the one sending me peace, grace, mercy, forgiveness, and love.

A Couple of weeks ago I was really struggling, every time I would be on my way home from college I would be on the bus home and want to start breaking down and crying, but the tears never really came and it's not because I wanted to hold it together and not cry, because all I wanted to do was cry, but I think that maybe I didn't cry because on a spiritual level, I knew God had everything in his hands and there was no need to be stressed, anxious or fearful of what was to come and I didn't realize this until just a couple days ago.
This week we got our assessment week timetable and got told it was 6 weeks until our actual exams and I freaked, especially considering we have to get 315 hours of work experience this year too. This basically means I have to revise, do any homework or assignments and do work experience on my days off all in such little time. To me, it feels like a crazy amount, maybe it's not as much as I make it out to be and maybe other people have more work to do than me, but I'm not trying to compare myself to anyone else, I am only saying that this is stressful for me. Anyway, this week as I've been revising and writing notes for my theory assessment, I've been remembering my mums preach in church a couple weeks ago about finding rest in the work, about how we can find a calm and rest in God amongst the busy, overwhelming work full days. I also rediscovered a playlist of acoustic Christian music to listen to that has really got me through this week. Within the playlist there are so many songs that are about seeking God's presence, but also about knowing that God is with us and in control and has brought us through storms and will not leave us in this one and I have felt such an utter presence and closeness to Christ within these songs. I know that I can trust God and I can talk to Him and He understands my situation and He knows me and He is my best friend. He really is, He has always been my best friend and I have found such wholeness in Him this year. I used to be so sad and depressed about the fact that I never really had a best friend, I had friends I thought were my best friends, but never really were, then this year, I have great friends, but I still can't seem to call them my best friends, and just this weekend I have come to notice that God is my best friend and I don't need a best friend that is 'human' God is all I need, I can speak to Him about anything and everything, I praise Him and go to Him, but not only that, He is always there for me, He always wants me, He is always showing me love, even when I don't deserve it, He is always helping me and leading me and speaking to me and always with me. He is my Immanuel. He doesn't have to do any of this, I certainly don't deserve it because I'm not always the greatest at being a friend back, but He still chooses me as His child and friend and loved one.

I'm not gonna lie, I'm still nervous and anxious as heck for this week, but I can say and know so confidently that God is with me, He is with us, I can trust him with my fears and anxieties and I do not need to be afraid. Being afraid is only allowing the devil to win, it's only allowing him to take hold of me, but I choose God and His strength and His love. God is so much greater and stronger than any fear or storm that may come my way. So I say all praise to God this December and forevermore, no matter the results on my mocks and no matter my results for the real thing.

Immanuel - God With Us

BeeBee

xxx

We went to Spain

I'm finally free to start writing about the absolute joys of my holiday in Spain. It's been 3 weeks since we got back, but I've been quite busy with college work since we got back, but I finally have some free hours, so lets jump right in.

D A Y 1
We awoke at around 2:00 am to get to the airport for around half 3. Yes, it was a bit of a crazy morning, especially as my older brothers car battery decided to die just as we were about to leave and so some of my family had to get a taxi down to the airport instead. After the shenanigans of getting to the airport were over, the journey through security began. To be honest it wasn't as crazy as I was expecting it to be. apart from the fact that when we had to weigh our suitcases and scan our tickets, the tickets wouldn't scan and so we had to get them reprinted, it was a hassle, but we got through it and quickly said goodbye to our suitcase, praying that none of them would get lost, which they didn't. As I said, security wasn't that bad, I did actually send the beeper thing off, but it was only because I got told my earings would be fine going through, so I didn't take them off.
We got through security and off onto the plane we went. I actually really loved my first plane ride, the take-off felt a little like an elevator I thought, but I didn't mind it, I kinda liked it actually. It was quite cool for our first plane ride because not only did we get to see sunrise, but there were also some great chances for photos.

 

The journey wasn't long, only a couple of hours, most of us either slept or just listened to music. Once we got into Menorca and out of the plane, the heat and humidity immediately hit, but I loved it, it made me so excited. We got onto our coach and headed down to the hotel, let me just take a minute to say how great this hotel was, the rooms, the food, the activities, it was incredible. Anyway, we settled into our rooms, all of us girls sharing a room, including K (My older brother's girlfriend, who came with us), the boys shared the room adjacent to ours on the right and my parents with my youngest brother on the left.
Once we were settled in the rooms, we headed down to the beach in Punta Prima that was a 5-minute walk from our hotel, we then played a few games of tennis before it was food time and then we chilled until we decided it was sleep time.

 


D A Y 2
The Tuesday was a bit of a fail of a day, we made a couple plans that got canceled because of rain and other various reasons, but that didn't stop us from having a really good day. We basically spent the day in the hotel, but it was all good because it had loads of activities and games going on.

   

To top an imperfect perfect day off, there was an electrical storm that we could see from our balcony views, which meant for some epic slow-mo videos and screenshots of those slow-mo videos. I'm pretty sure the storm was still going when we all went to sleep.

  


D A Y 3
It sunnied up after the storm, so on the third day, we decided to head down to the town of Mahon and look at the markets. We spent all day there pretty much, just wandering around the towns, looking in a few clothe and souvenir shops, we also took a boat ride around the docks and smaller islands.  

   

The evening was spent chilling, either in the bar watching the entertainment or playing games back in the rooms.

D A Y 4
This was actually one of my favorite days despite it being a little dreary. We basically got driven round in a coach all day getting a tour of the island, we went from North to South and obviously made a few stops on the way to take in the sites.

      

The night was spent pretty chill again, I spent the night looking up at the beautiful stars because the sky was clear and I don't get to see the stars enough in Liverpool. My older brother came with me, so I wasn't lonely as well. (I know that the following picture on the right is not the best picture of stars, it was only taken on my phone and its the only one I have.)

 

D A Y 5
Honestly, this was the best day, and I'm not just saying that because it was J's 21st birthday. It was so chill and sunny and beautiful and honestly couldn't have gone better. To start the day off, we obviously had breakfast, but then we headed off to the water park.

 

We spent until lunch at the water park and had Italian in one of the restaurants at the hotel. We then opened J's gifts and cards and headed down to Binibecca beach, where we stayed to swim in the sea and watch the sun go down.

      

You ain't ready for the beauty that was this sunset, and the pictures don't even do it justice.

  
  

   

We arrived back at the hotel just before the restaurant had finished its dinner rounds, we also managed to get a birthday cake that tasted so good, one of the best chocolate cakes I have had.

 

That was basically it for J's birthday. Honestly, I think this day was so much fun, every moment was so good, right from the waking up to the going to sleep, there probably wasn't one moment where I wasn't either smiling or laughing.

D A Y 6

This was also a pretty great day, we took a walk over to a cove with some really clear blue waters, so we did some snorkeling and saw lots of fish. We also saw a really cute cat just chilling on the beach. 

   

For lunch we found a cute restaurant where most of us had pizza, personally, my favourite thing about this restaurant wasn't the food, it was the owner's dog who was the cutest fluffiest thing.

 

After lunch, most of us headed back to the hotel, where us girls went souvenir shopping, the rest of my family either stayed down at the cove or went looking around the town of San Luis.

Then it be dinner and goodnight time.

D A Y 7

This was a sad, but joyful day. It may have been our last full day, but we used it to our advantage and it was great because it was sunny, so we were able to get some great tans to bring back to Britain.

The morning was pretty chill with some of us choosing to go for a bike ride, while others either went for a swim in the sea or paddle in the shallow pool. I was one of the people that decided to go for a bike ride, it took just over two hours, but we hired the bikes for 3 hours, so we had plenty of time. We cycled up to Binibecca beach and chilled up there for a bit of a break. We then cycled a little past Binibecca for an icecream stop and then off back down to Punta Prima. It was a lot of hills, and also a little weird cycling on the opposite side of the road, but it was really fun going down the hills and cycling near the sea. Because the cycle only took a couple hours, we soon joined my older sister sunbathing by the paddling pool.

 

  

That almost concluded our last full day, but to top it off, the entertainment in the bar that night was some intense, but cool acrobatics. 

   

D A Y 8

And so began the goodbyes to Menorca. Our flight out wasn't as early as the one in, but we still had to be up by at least 7;00am, so it was average early. I was so sad to be leaving and literally was on the verge of tears a couple times. I really did love everything about it, it just seemed like everyone was happy and getting along and becoming closer as a family, it was also so cool getting to know K and spending time with her. There isn't one thing I would change about it, which I feel is a bit cliche, but it's true, I feel like it just really brought the family closer.

One of the perks of getting up at 7:00 meant that we got to see the sunrise, it was quite pretty. Getting through the airport was pretty simple, people say that once you've done it once, it is pretty simple, which I thought was the case, although security is still the most stressful thing about getting through the airport. I was quite chuffed as well because I got a window seat both on the way there and on the way back.

  

  

That concludes my holiday in Spain. I'd say it was pretty great for my first time abroad, I would definitely go back if I could. I was almost depressed for 2 days straight when we got back like I didn't get out of bed at all. 

I hope you enjoyed this read. If you didn't, I don't really care, I write these things mainly me for me anyways. If you feel like it, leave me a comment and hopefully, I'll be back writing another post soon.

BeeBee 

xxx

Holiday in 4 days

Okay, so I am going abroad for the first time ever in like, slightly less than 4 days! It's crazy and exciting.
We're going to Menorca in Spain and so I thought I'd post about some of the things I am excited to do leading up to and on the holiday.

Packing: As much as it is difficult packing because I have to choose what clothing I am bringing, I do love to get excited about wearing the outfits I choose and having all my favourite clothes packed ready for me to wear in freaking Spain. The whole process of fitting things in your suitcase and everything satisfyingly fitting in, mmm. it's good.

The flight/Arriving: I have never been on a plane, so the plane process is both nerve-wracking and exciting. I feel like the process of having to get on a plane, all the security, and luggage stuff you have to sort out is stressful, but I'm excited to be on the plane, especially if I have a window seat. We're flying at like 4 o'clock in the morning as well, so we could possibly be flying during sunrise, which will be pretty cool. I feel like arriving is gonna be exciting as well, even though you have to go through the airport first, just being in a different country is gonna be cool.

Sunsets/Sunrises: Praying and hoping for clear skies while we're there so that we can see some of the beauty of the island including the sunsets on the beach. I am also hoping that our hotel has a view of the sunrise so that I can see the sunrise because I love the idea of sitting on the balcony of the hotel room with a coffee and some instrumental music in the background, praising Jesus as the sun rises.

The sea!: The clear seawater of the beaches will hopefully be such a refreshment compared to Liverpool water. I love beaches anyway, so a beach in Spain, with pretty water and the hot sun and, ooh, I am so psyched!

Joel's birthday day: It is my older brother's birthday while we're away and we're gonna be doing something special, probably with a nice dinner to finish the day off. We don't know exactly what we're doing for his birthday, but it will be something good and I am looking forward to it.


That's basically the gist of what I am looking forward too, but obviously, I am excited about the whole thing. My brother's girlfriend is also coming with us and I feel like that's gonna be fun, so yeah. We are going from Sunday to Sunday, so a whole week and then I get the half term off, so I get two weeks off college, but I will have work to catch up on. I am honestly bursting with excitement for this holiday.

I hope you enjoyed reading. You will definitely be getting to see a blog post about my holiday and I will definitely have too many photos to show you. Write soon,

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 30: Highs and Lows of September

YOUR HIGHS AND LOWS OF THE MONTH

I feel like I should do the lows first because then the good stuff is how we end this month.

LOWS

• Having Jake as my college course tutor. I was excited to start college, but when I found out that the most boring tutor and the same tutor that made me wanna cry last year was my tutor for all my lessons this year, it made me a lot less excited for college.

• Starting college. Even though I was really bored at the end of summer, college means I have less time to do things I want. In the summer I painted loads, but I haven't done any since being back at college and I miss it.

• All the flipping rain. Being back at college means I have to get the bus and when it is chucking it down with rain, it not nice waiting for a bus for 20 minutes without a shelter. I had to do practical in the pouring rain the other day and got soaked and I was so cold because it meant I had to sit in cold wet clothes for like another 3 hours. I just really miss summer and the sun and warmth.

• Homework. I have not missed having revision and homework to do. As much as it gives me something to do and can be fun at times, it is also so boring.

HIGHS

• Starting college. I know I put this in my lows, but it hasn't only been low. Being back at college is great because I get to see my friends and learn more about what I love and it uses my time instead of me wasting it on screens.

• Loved to Worship was a big high. Loved to Worship is an event that happens every other month and it's just a night of worship. This month's one was the first one back since before the summer, it was incredible. The atmosphere of everyone's worship towards God was beautiful and mesmerizing. God spoke to me in so many ways that night and I couldn't get enough of God's presence. I wish every night was like the nights we get at Loved to Worship, but there is life to get on with, but that doesn't stop God from showing up every day.

• Rooted. It's good to have our Sunday youth group meetings back on. It is a great space to talk about God with other young Christians and to learn how to be more like Christ. It's so nourishing and it teaches me to think and dwell on more things.   

• Reading the bible. At the moment I'm reading the minor prophets and doing a study on Psalms. Reading the bible is not always something that I want to do or something that comes easily, but I have been reading the bible a lot more and it's really helping me to connect with Christ in every day. The more I read it, the more I want to read and it is really great being able to read it everyday. Part of the Hidden Word series that we're doing in Rooted is talking a lot of persecuted Christians in different countries. Christians all around the world can be put to death from just owning a bible. Going through all this in Rooted is helping me a fair bit, to not take my bible for granted and to take the chance to read it as much as possible.

• New music and old music. The only great thing about walking to college is listening to some good tunes. I have started listening to an artist that I forgot I loved and it's been really jamming, but a long with rediscovering music, there have been favourite artists of mine that have brought out new music and I am loving it.

• Writing this blog. This is the last blog post of the 30 day challenge and it has been a lot of fun. I managed to keep it up every day and I am happy with how each post turned out. I hope that I can keep my blog up through the next month and for the rest of the year to be honest. I can't believe tomorrow is October, like, thats crazy.

I think there has definitely been more highs to this month than lows, which am definitely taking as a good thing. I hope that I'm not the only one who has enjoyed this and I'm excited to see what will happen next on my blog. One thing I am excited to write about, which will be in November, is, not only my first experience on a plane and abroad, but the whole holiday that is gonna happen in Menorca Spain. Well, goodbye for now.

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 29: 5 goals for the next month

WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS FOR THE NEXT 30 DAYS

1. To make time for revision and actually work hard. To have a positive attitude to what I have chosen to learn.
2. Part of the new thing we're doing in our Youth group meetings, aka, Rooted, is to remember more of scripture and I guess my goal in this is to spend more time with God and want to start remembering/trying to remember the verses I read. We call it 'Hiding scripture in your 'heart.'
3. To get out of my comfort zone in college. I know that I can become quite closed and shy as soon as I enter the college environment and I hope and keep praying that I will gain more confidence in asking questions and also answering the ones asked to us.
4. To not be 'lazy'. One of the things I've been praying about at the moment is for some energy as such. I can be really quite lazy with a lot of things and I don't want to be, I want to put more energy and enthusiasm into things and relationships. 
5. To carry on keeping my blog up. I really enjoy writing my blog and it's been fun doing this 30-day writing challenge and I hope that I can push myself to keep going with my blog. I'm gonna try at least do it once or twice a month.

I thought I'd keep myself to 5 fairly simple goals because I didn't want to set too many goals that I would then feel overwhelmed with. If you have any goals for the next month, let me know in the comments. Thanks for reading, hope you've enjoyed it if you made it to the end.

BeeBee
Xxx

DAY 28: Laughing out Loud right now

POST FIVE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH-OUT-LOUD

1. F. R . I . E . N . D . S - Always.
2. Vine Compilations - Again, without fail, always making me laugh.
3. Jordan's Messyges - Like seriously, hilarious. Go watch them on the Blimey Cow youtube channel.
4. Any relatable meme to be honest, or just anything relatable.
5. Last, but most certainly not least, my best friends, who will never fail to make me laugh to the point where I am almost peeing myself.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 27: My life is pretty Kick Ass right now

CONVERSELY, WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING THAT'S KICKING ASS RIGHT NOW

Today's topic really confused me on what it actually wanted me to talk about, so I checked out other blogs on this and everyone kind of interpreted it in different ways, but mostly it was people writing about stuff that is kicking ass in their life, so that is what I'm gonna do.

My life isn't necessarily amazing or 'kicking ass' right now, but there are blessings that have happened recently that I could say are 'kicking ass'.

1. My friends never fail to make me laugh. I'll come home from college and I'll start laughing again from the things that have happened in the day. It really makes my day laughing with them. Every conversation will have us laughing at some point and I think that is a great way to live life.
2. I am eating more fruit at the moment, and this may be something that isn't really in the 'kicking ass' category, but at some point in my life, I stopped eating fruit, which isn't all that great or healthy, so I guess I am just proud of myself for eating more fruit recently.
3. Conversations with my friends about Christ are really great at the moment, they start getting really intrigued and ask lots of questions, but also, God has been helping me to answer the questions as well and talk about what the bible actually says about certain things of which they are asking. It's all very exciting because I am hoping that they will come to a Christian event with me and become even more curious.
4. The last thing is the fact that even though I am having bad days in college, instead of trying to make myself feel better by distracting myself with watching stuff, I am actually praying about it and asking Jesus to be in these difficult situations and days. 

I guess the gist of what is 'kicking ass' right now is my Christian life, I feel close to God and I trust in him and have faith in him and what he is doing in my life, and He feels me with joy every day, no matter the circumstances.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 26: I would love to improve...

WRITE ABOUT AN AREA IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU'D LIKE TO IMPROVE

There are lots of areas of my life I would like to improve, but the one I'll talk about today is how to not follow the crowd.
In some ways I don't really follow the crowd, but in others I do. What I mean is, if my sisters aren't getting up, then I won't want to either. If my friends are complaining about someone or something, I'll start complaining too, even if I don't really care about the thing or person.
It is one of the things that really annoys me about myself because if I want to have a productive day, or need a productive day to get lots of things done, but my sisters are sitting doing nothing, just on their phones or watching something, I then find myself wanting to do the same, even when I have lots of things to do, all I want to do is sit and watch things on my phone. However, if my sisters were to get up, or leave the room or the house, I would then be able to be productive and get things done because they were up and moving about. The same sort of goes for when my friends are bitching about someone. If they're complaining about the day or the weather or something, even if I don't mind how the day is going, or I'm loving the weather, I'll start complaining because they are and if they were really hyped about something, and I wasn't feeling the best, I would suddenly be hyped.
I get that in some circumstances, it can be a good thing, for instance if I wasn't feeling great and my friends were feeling energetic and hyped, then that would rub off on me and might make me feel better, but in other ways, it's not always good.
I won't ever 'follow the crowd' in 'extreme' circumstances, what I mean by this is, if all my friends were to start smoking, I would not go and smoke with them, or if my friends decided to skip a lesson, I would not do that either. I know they aren't 'extreme' circumstances, but you get what I mean.
Anyway, I am working on improving this, slowly. If I am doing something that I need to be doing and I see my sisters chilling on their phones, I just remind myself that I can do that later once I've done some revision. Or if I'm taking time out for God, but all I want to do is watch a film because that is what my sisters are doing, then I'll first, pray that God would give me strength to not get distracted, but also I would remind myself that I am drawing close to God which is a whole lot more beneficial to my life than wasting time watching movies.
I'm still figuring it out with the 'following my friends moods' thing. When they start bitching and gossiping about people, I try to stay quiet and not get involved. I know I wouldn't like it if people were saying stuff about me behind my back, so to improve on 'not following the crowd' I try to simply stay quiet when they start complaining about something, but if they start getting hyped, I will quite happily get involved in that because it puts me in a better mood.

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 25: Inspiration from a google image

THINK OF ANY WORD, SEARCH IT ON GOOGLE IMAGES, WRITE SOMETHING INSPIRED BY THE 11TH IMAGE

Well, my word was spooky, so this should be interesting...

Berry is a 'berry' scary ghost. I'm kidding, she isn't actually that scary. She loves to have conversations with people in their dreams, and mostly she disguises herself as a Pac-man ghost. Her favourite colour is berry blue, but she likes to call it blueberry. Her least favourite activity is scaring people, she never saw the point in scaring people, people are too nice. Berry has her favourite people to talk to, they are always the children, the ones with the best imagination. Make sure you are always looking out for a Pac-man ghost in your dreams, it's probably Berry, don't worry though, she just wants to find out what your favourite things to do are.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 24: I learnt this the hard way

WRITE ABOUT A LESSON YOU'VE LEARNT THE HARD WAY

When I was still doing homeschool and thinking about going to college, I always thought that I would be really good when it came to revision and would revise often, but in reality, that was not the case.

When my level 3 course started last year, I went in thinking I was going to revise every day and take good breaks and manage my revision sessions well, but actually, when it came to it, I did not manage my time well. I would get home from college and go on my phone or watch a film and procrastinate my revision. I know this is a very human thing to do and lots of people do it, which is why it's one of the reasons I thought I was not going to be one of these people that procrastinates their revision. 

Anyway, because college was stressful enough, when I would get home I wouldn't want to do revision, so I wouldn't, but I would soon regret it. I would do tiny bits of revision at a time, like I would say I'm doing revision, but truth is, I'm probably not taking in any of the information. All this led to a very stressed out me. I would be crying as I fall asleep and feel like I don't know anything when I'd go into college the next day. 

Basically, the day before my exam, I revised all in one night, resulting in me staying up until midnight and let's say that I have learned my lesson. 

Because of all the stress last-minute revision caused me, I hope that this year I have learned and don't procrastinate as much.

I feel like last-minute revision is always a lesson you have to learn the hard way, but then again, it may work for some people, but it caused me a lot of tears, so definitely not doing that this year.

Thanks for reading

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 23: Dear Anyone...

A LETTER TO SOMEONE, ANYONE

Dear Anyone or Everyone,

God is not who you think He is. He is not a load of dos and don'ts, He is not a church with stained glass windows or a choir singing 'boring' hymns. God is not what the world may think, He is so much more. 

God wants a relationship with you and when we sinned at the beginning of time and when we choose to sin every day, we take away the intimacy that God wants with us. This is why He sent His only son to die for us, for our sins. Jesus dying and rising again allows us to draw close to the Father again. Through Jesus death has been conquered and we can find life in Christ.

You may think that church is an old building, that it is boring, that you have to believe in God and follow all His rules and always do good, but that is not the case, that is not what God wants with you, He doesn't want a religion, He wants a relationship, He wants to be your father and best friend.

All God wants, is for you to want Him like He wants you. He made you for Him, so why wouldn't He want a relationship with you. 

God is love and kindness. He is there when you need Him on your worst day, but also there on all of your best days. He is always ready to listen and always ready to just sit with you. He knows when you are sad and it breaks Him when you are. God will love you even if you have done your absolute worst. I know of people who have ended up in prison and done awful things and yet found Christ and forgiveness while in their cell. 

You may wonder "If God is so loving, why are there kids dying and starving around the world?" well, that my friend, is called evil. The devil still lives in the world and is causing trouble all the time. We have to choose God, we have to choose to love and have love. When we pray, the Lord answers and evil is conquered.

God is not who you think He is, He is so much more.

Lots of love,

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 22: I put my music on Shuffle

PUT YOUR MUSIC ON SHUFFLE AND POST THE FIRST 10 SONGS

1. Your Wings by Lauren Daigle
2. Rose Gold by Pentatonix (This is lol because I've not listened to Pentatonix in ages, I don't even like them much anymore)
3. Cool by Jonas Brothers
4. Burn The Ships by for KING & COUNTRY
5. With A Little Help From My Friends by Joe Anderson and Jim Sturgess
6. Wonderful by Janet Devlin (Haven't listened to this in so long either)
7. I'm Still Here by Sia
8. Take Everything by Rivers & Robots
9. You're Not Alone by Owl City
10. One by Ed Sheeran

They are all pretty good songs to be honest, pretty chuffed with that list.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 21: 3 things I hope my children are going to learn

WHAT 3 LESSONS DO YOU WANT YOUR CHILDREN TO LEARN FROM YOU?

Well, I have recently decided that I don't want kids, but if I did have children, then these are the lessons or just 'things' that I would want them to know.

1. How to wait. I am such an impatient person, but God is teaching me how to be more patient and to live more in the moment, and I hope that when I have kids, if I do, that I will be able to teach them how to be patient, wait and live in the moment.
2. Don't binge shows. Don't get me wrong, I love a good binge and I might binge a show if it's one season or only a couple episodes, but if it's six seasons long with 24 episodes in each season, do not binge it. I learnt this the hard way, my life got consumed by the tv show, (I have done it more than twice and both times it was a mistake) and I couldn't think about anything else, it was also all I wanted to do, was to watch this show. I found I couldn't concentrate in college or when playing a game with my family or I wouldn't be making time for God because all I wanted to do was watch this show. I hope that maybe my kids will learn to have more self-control than me and not get addicted to watching new shows all the time and that they will learn not to waste time on screens, but take time for family and God.
3. Read more books. When I find a book that I like, I will love it, but most the time I see a book and cannot be bothered to read it. I wish I loved reading because I do enjoy it when I find a good book, but this generation is so screen-based with Netflix and Amazon Prime and YouTube and all these other streaming services, that because I have got into watching shows and movies too much, that now I am one of those people that does not read even though I wish I did. I hope I can teach my kids to read because it is so much better for you, for your English, for your sight, and for your general brain.

Those are the 3 'things'/'lessons' that I want my children to learn, hope you enjoyed.

BeeBee

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DAY 20: 3 celebrity crushes

POST ABOUT 3 CELEBRITY CRUSHES

(Highest to lowest)

• Tom Hiddleston. 

Okay, but I don't even love Tom Hiddleston because of his looks, he is crazy talented and okay, yes, he is pretty cute as well, but his personality, from what I know, is kind and loving, he is a dog person and he is just too cool. Let me give you a list of some of Tom Hiddleston’s great qualities and why he is simply one of the best human beings alive.

•   His looks
•  He is naturally ginger
•  He is a dog person
•  He can speak different languages
•   He works with UNICEF (United Nations International Children's Emergency Fund)
•   He is kind (from what I have seen)
•   He is British
•   He has the most British name (Thomas William Hiddleston)
•   He loves Tennis
•  He can sing
•   He can act
•  He can dance
•   He can play spoons
•   He can yodel
•   He plays Loki

Must I go on!? Tom Hiddleston is just one of the best people alive, and no one can tell me otherwise. Yes, he probably does have flaws, such as, not being a Christian, or dating Taylor Swift, but I mean, if they were happy, then that's none of my business.  Anyway, to me, he is perfectly imperfect, plus, I don't really have a crush on him, I simply appreciate him for the awesome human being he is.

• Sebastian Stan

I mean, Sebastian Stan is just pretty, and you know you can't deny it. Plus, he is so sweet and he played the amazing Bucky in Captain America and the Mad Hatter in Once Upon A Time and probably many other cool characters.

• Lucas Zumann 

You may not know about or know who Lucas Zumann is, but so you do, he plays Gilbert in 'Anne with an E' on Netflix. I don't know that much about him, but he is only one year older than me, and he is too darn cute! Too bad he already has a girlfriend and lives in America.

(None of these images are mine, I found them all on Google)

BeeBee

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