DAY 30: Highs and Lows of September

YOUR HIGHS AND LOWS OF THE MONTH

I feel like I should do the lows first because then the good stuff is how we end this month.

LOWS

• Having Jake as my college course tutor. I was excited to start college, but when I found out that the most boring tutor and the same tutor that made me wanna cry last year was my tutor for all my lessons this year, it made me a lot less excited for college.

• Starting college. Even though I was really bored at the end of summer, college means I have less time to do things I want. In the summer I painted loads, but I haven't done any since being back at college and I miss it.

• All the flipping rain. Being back at college means I have to get the bus and when it is chucking it down with rain, it not nice waiting for a bus for 20 minutes without a shelter. I had to do practical in the pouring rain the other day and got soaked and I was so cold because it meant I had to sit in cold wet clothes for like another 3 hours. I just really miss summer and the sun and warmth.

• Homework. I have not missed having revision and homework to do. As much as it gives me something to do and can be fun at times, it is also so boring.

HIGHS

• Starting college. I know I put this in my lows, but it hasn't only been low. Being back at college is great because I get to see my friends and learn more about what I love and it uses my time instead of me wasting it on screens.

• Loved to Worship was a big high. Loved to Worship is an event that happens every other month and it's just a night of worship. This month's one was the first one back since before the summer, it was incredible. The atmosphere of everyone's worship towards God was beautiful and mesmerizing. God spoke to me in so many ways that night and I couldn't get enough of God's presence. I wish every night was like the nights we get at Loved to Worship, but there is life to get on with, but that doesn't stop God from showing up every day.

• Rooted. It's good to have our Sunday youth group meetings back on. It is a great space to talk about God with other young Christians and to learn how to be more like Christ. It's so nourishing and it teaches me to think and dwell on more things.   

• Reading the bible. At the moment I'm reading the minor prophets and doing a study on Psalms. Reading the bible is not always something that I want to do or something that comes easily, but I have been reading the bible a lot more and it's really helping me to connect with Christ in every day. The more I read it, the more I want to read and it is really great being able to read it everyday. Part of the Hidden Word series that we're doing in Rooted is talking a lot of persecuted Christians in different countries. Christians all around the world can be put to death from just owning a bible. Going through all this in Rooted is helping me a fair bit, to not take my bible for granted and to take the chance to read it as much as possible.

• New music and old music. The only great thing about walking to college is listening to some good tunes. I have started listening to an artist that I forgot I loved and it's been really jamming, but a long with rediscovering music, there have been favourite artists of mine that have brought out new music and I am loving it.

• Writing this blog. This is the last blog post of the 30 day challenge and it has been a lot of fun. I managed to keep it up every day and I am happy with how each post turned out. I hope that I can keep my blog up through the next month and for the rest of the year to be honest. I can't believe tomorrow is October, like, thats crazy.

I think there has definitely been more highs to this month than lows, which am definitely taking as a good thing. I hope that I'm not the only one who has enjoyed this and I'm excited to see what will happen next on my blog. One thing I am excited to write about, which will be in November, is, not only my first experience on a plane and abroad, but the whole holiday that is gonna happen in Menorca Spain. Well, goodbye for now.

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 29: 5 goals for the next month

WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS FOR THE NEXT 30 DAYS

1. To make time for revision and actually work hard. To have a positive attitude to what I have chosen to learn.
2. Part of the new thing we're doing in our Youth group meetings, aka, Rooted, is to remember more of scripture and I guess my goal in this is to spend more time with God and want to start remembering/trying to remember the verses I read. We call it 'Hiding scripture in your 'heart.'
3. To get out of my comfort zone in college. I know that I can become quite closed and shy as soon as I enter the college environment and I hope and keep praying that I will gain more confidence in asking questions and also answering the ones asked to us.
4. To not be 'lazy'. One of the things I've been praying about at the moment is for some energy as such. I can be really quite lazy with a lot of things and I don't want to be, I want to put more energy and enthusiasm into things and relationships. 
5. To carry on keeping my blog up. I really enjoy writing my blog and it's been fun doing this 30-day writing challenge and I hope that I can push myself to keep going with my blog. I'm gonna try at least do it once or twice a month.

I thought I'd keep myself to 5 fairly simple goals because I didn't want to set too many goals that I would then feel overwhelmed with. If you have any goals for the next month, let me know in the comments. Thanks for reading, hope you've enjoyed it if you made it to the end.

BeeBee
Xxx

DAY 28: Laughing out Loud right now

POST FIVE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH-OUT-LOUD

1. F. R . I . E . N . D . S - Always.
2. Vine Compilations - Again, without fail, always making me laugh.
3. Jordan's Messyges - Like seriously, hilarious. Go watch them on the Blimey Cow youtube channel.
4. Any relatable meme to be honest, or just anything relatable.
5. Last, but most certainly not least, my best friends, who will never fail to make me laugh to the point where I am almost peeing myself.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 27: My life is pretty Kick Ass right now

CONVERSELY, WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING THAT'S KICKING ASS RIGHT NOW

Today's topic really confused me on what it actually wanted me to talk about, so I checked out other blogs on this and everyone kind of interpreted it in different ways, but mostly it was people writing about stuff that is kicking ass in their life, so that is what I'm gonna do.

My life isn't necessarily amazing or 'kicking ass' right now, but there are blessings that have happened recently that I could say are 'kicking ass'.

1. My friends never fail to make me laugh. I'll come home from college and I'll start laughing again from the things that have happened in the day. It really makes my day laughing with them. Every conversation will have us laughing at some point and I think that is a great way to live life.
2. I am eating more fruit at the moment, and this may be something that isn't really in the 'kicking ass' category, but at some point in my life, I stopped eating fruit, which isn't all that great or healthy, so I guess I am just proud of myself for eating more fruit recently.
3. Conversations with my friends about Christ are really great at the moment, they start getting really intrigued and ask lots of questions, but also, God has been helping me to answer the questions as well and talk about what the bible actually says about certain things of which they are asking. It's all very exciting because I am hoping that they will come to a Christian event with me and become even more curious.
4. The last thing is the fact that even though I am having bad days in college, instead of trying to make myself feel better by distracting myself with watching stuff, I am actually praying about it and asking Jesus to be in these difficult situations and days. 

I guess the gist of what is 'kicking ass' right now is my Christian life, I feel close to God and I trust in him and have faith in him and what he is doing in my life, and He feels me with joy every day, no matter the circumstances.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 26: I would love to improve...

WRITE ABOUT AN AREA IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU'D LIKE TO IMPROVE

There are lots of areas of my life I would like to improve, but the one I'll talk about today is how to not follow the crowd.
In some ways I don't really follow the crowd, but in others I do. What I mean is, if my sisters aren't getting up, then I won't want to either. If my friends are complaining about someone or something, I'll start complaining too, even if I don't really care about the thing or person.
It is one of the things that really annoys me about myself because if I want to have a productive day, or need a productive day to get lots of things done, but my sisters are sitting doing nothing, just on their phones or watching something, I then find myself wanting to do the same, even when I have lots of things to do, all I want to do is sit and watch things on my phone. However, if my sisters were to get up, or leave the room or the house, I would then be able to be productive and get things done because they were up and moving about. The same sort of goes for when my friends are bitching about someone. If they're complaining about the day or the weather or something, even if I don't mind how the day is going, or I'm loving the weather, I'll start complaining because they are and if they were really hyped about something, and I wasn't feeling the best, I would suddenly be hyped.
I get that in some circumstances, it can be a good thing, for instance if I wasn't feeling great and my friends were feeling energetic and hyped, then that would rub off on me and might make me feel better, but in other ways, it's not always good.
I won't ever 'follow the crowd' in 'extreme' circumstances, what I mean by this is, if all my friends were to start smoking, I would not go and smoke with them, or if my friends decided to skip a lesson, I would not do that either. I know they aren't 'extreme' circumstances, but you get what I mean.
Anyway, I am working on improving this, slowly. If I am doing something that I need to be doing and I see my sisters chilling on their phones, I just remind myself that I can do that later once I've done some revision. Or if I'm taking time out for God, but all I want to do is watch a film because that is what my sisters are doing, then I'll first, pray that God would give me strength to not get distracted, but also I would remind myself that I am drawing close to God which is a whole lot more beneficial to my life than wasting time watching movies.
I'm still figuring it out with the 'following my friends moods' thing. When they start bitching and gossiping about people, I try to stay quiet and not get involved. I know I wouldn't like it if people were saying stuff about me behind my back, so to improve on 'not following the crowd' I try to simply stay quiet when they start complaining about something, but if they start getting hyped, I will quite happily get involved in that because it puts me in a better mood.

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 25: Inspiration from a google image

THINK OF ANY WORD, SEARCH IT ON GOOGLE IMAGES, WRITE SOMETHING INSPIRED BY THE 11TH IMAGE

Well, my word was spooky, so this should be interesting...

Berry is a 'berry' scary ghost. I'm kidding, she isn't actually that scary. She loves to have conversations with people in their dreams, and mostly she disguises herself as a Pac-man ghost. Her favourite colour is berry blue, but she likes to call it blueberry. Her least favourite activity is scaring people, she never saw the point in scaring people, people are too nice. Berry has her favourite people to talk to, they are always the children, the ones with the best imagination. Make sure you are always looking out for a Pac-man ghost in your dreams, it's probably Berry, don't worry though, she just wants to find out what your favourite things to do are.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 24: I learnt this the hard way

WRITE ABOUT A LESSON YOU'VE LEARNT THE HARD WAY

When I was still doing homeschool and thinking about going to college, I always thought that I would be really good when it came to revision and would revise often, but in reality, that was not the case.

When my level 3 course started last year, I went in thinking I was going to revise every day and take good breaks and manage my revision sessions well, but actually, when it came to it, I did not manage my time well. I would get home from college and go on my phone or watch a film and procrastinate my revision. I know this is a very human thing to do and lots of people do it, which is why it's one of the reasons I thought I was not going to be one of these people that procrastinates their revision. 

Anyway, because college was stressful enough, when I would get home I wouldn't want to do revision, so I wouldn't, but I would soon regret it. I would do tiny bits of revision at a time, like I would say I'm doing revision, but truth is, I'm probably not taking in any of the information. All this led to a very stressed out me. I would be crying as I fall asleep and feel like I don't know anything when I'd go into college the next day. 

Basically, the day before my exam, I revised all in one night, resulting in me staying up until midnight and let's say that I have learned my lesson. 

Because of all the stress last-minute revision caused me, I hope that this year I have learned and don't procrastinate as much.

I feel like last-minute revision is always a lesson you have to learn the hard way, but then again, it may work for some people, but it caused me a lot of tears, so definitely not doing that this year.

Thanks for reading

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 23: Dear Anyone...

A LETTER TO SOMEONE, ANYONE

Dear Anyone or Everyone,

God is not who you think He is. He is not a load of dos and don'ts, He is not a church with stained glass windows or a choir singing 'boring' hymns. God is not what the world may think, He is so much more. 

God wants a relationship with you and when we sinned at the beginning of time and when we choose to sin every day, we take away the intimacy that God wants with us. This is why He sent His only son to die for us, for our sins. Jesus dying and rising again allows us to draw close to the Father again. Through Jesus death has been conquered and we can find life in Christ.

You may think that church is an old building, that it is boring, that you have to believe in God and follow all His rules and always do good, but that is not the case, that is not what God wants with you, He doesn't want a religion, He wants a relationship, He wants to be your father and best friend.

All God wants, is for you to want Him like He wants you. He made you for Him, so why wouldn't He want a relationship with you. 

God is love and kindness. He is there when you need Him on your worst day, but also there on all of your best days. He is always ready to listen and always ready to just sit with you. He knows when you are sad and it breaks Him when you are. God will love you even if you have done your absolute worst. I know of people who have ended up in prison and done awful things and yet found Christ and forgiveness while in their cell. 

You may wonder "If God is so loving, why are there kids dying and starving around the world?" well, that my friend, is called evil. The devil still lives in the world and is causing trouble all the time. We have to choose God, we have to choose to love and have love. When we pray, the Lord answers and evil is conquered.

God is not who you think He is, He is so much more.

Lots of love,

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 22: I put my music on Shuffle

PUT YOUR MUSIC ON SHUFFLE AND POST THE FIRST 10 SONGS

1. Your Wings by Lauren Daigle
2. Rose Gold by Pentatonix (This is lol because I've not listened to Pentatonix in ages, I don't even like them much anymore)
3. Cool by Jonas Brothers
4. Burn The Ships by for KING & COUNTRY
5. With A Little Help From My Friends by Joe Anderson and Jim Sturgess
6. Wonderful by Janet Devlin (Haven't listened to this in so long either)
7. I'm Still Here by Sia
8. Take Everything by Rivers & Robots
9. You're Not Alone by Owl City
10. One by Ed Sheeran

They are all pretty good songs to be honest, pretty chuffed with that list.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 21: 3 things I hope my children are going to learn

WHAT 3 LESSONS DO YOU WANT YOUR CHILDREN TO LEARN FROM YOU?

Well, I have recently decided that I don't want kids, but if I did have children, then these are the lessons or just 'things' that I would want them to know.

1. How to wait. I am such an impatient person, but God is teaching me how to be more patient and to live more in the moment, and I hope that when I have kids, if I do, that I will be able to teach them how to be patient, wait and live in the moment.
2. Don't binge shows. Don't get me wrong, I love a good binge and I might binge a show if it's one season or only a couple episodes, but if it's six seasons long with 24 episodes in each season, do not binge it. I learnt this the hard way, my life got consumed by the tv show, (I have done it more than twice and both times it was a mistake) and I couldn't think about anything else, it was also all I wanted to do, was to watch this show. I found I couldn't concentrate in college or when playing a game with my family or I wouldn't be making time for God because all I wanted to do was watch this show. I hope that maybe my kids will learn to have more self-control than me and not get addicted to watching new shows all the time and that they will learn not to waste time on screens, but take time for family and God.
3. Read more books. When I find a book that I like, I will love it, but most the time I see a book and cannot be bothered to read it. I wish I loved reading because I do enjoy it when I find a good book, but this generation is so screen-based with Netflix and Amazon Prime and YouTube and all these other streaming services, that because I have got into watching shows and movies too much, that now I am one of those people that does not read even though I wish I did. I hope I can teach my kids to read because it is so much better for you, for your English, for your sight, and for your general brain.

Those are the 3 'things'/'lessons' that I want my children to learn, hope you enjoyed.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 20: 3 celebrity crushes

POST ABOUT 3 CELEBRITY CRUSHES

(Highest to lowest)

• Tom Hiddleston. 

Okay, but I don't even love Tom Hiddleston because of his looks, he is crazy talented and okay, yes, he is pretty cute as well, but his personality, from what I know, is kind and loving, he is a dog person and he is just too cool. Let me give you a list of some of Tom Hiddleston’s great qualities and why he is simply one of the best human beings alive.

•   His looks
•  He is naturally ginger
•  He is a dog person
•  He can speak different languages
•   He works with UNICEF (United Nations International Children's Emergency Fund)
•   He is kind (from what I have seen)
•   He is British
•   He has the most British name (Thomas William Hiddleston)
•   He loves Tennis
•  He can sing
•   He can act
•  He can dance
•   He can play spoons
•   He can yodel
•   He plays Loki

Must I go on!? Tom Hiddleston is just one of the best people alive, and no one can tell me otherwise. Yes, he probably does have flaws, such as, not being a Christian, or dating Taylor Swift, but I mean, if they were happy, then that's none of my business.  Anyway, to me, he is perfectly imperfect, plus, I don't really have a crush on him, I simply appreciate him for the awesome human being he is.

• Sebastian Stan

I mean, Sebastian Stan is just pretty, and you know you can't deny it. Plus, he is so sweet and he played the amazing Bucky in Captain America and the Mad Hatter in Once Upon A Time and probably many other cool characters.

• Lucas Zumann 

You may not know about or know who Lucas Zumann is, but so you do, he plays Gilbert in 'Anne with an E' on Netflix. I don't know that much about him, but he is only one year older than me, and he is too darn cute! Too bad he already has a girlfriend and lives in America.

(None of these images are mine, I found them all on Google)

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 19: My First Love

DISCUSS YOUR FIRST LOVE (lol)

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!
I have never been in love with a person, I have never even really fancied anyone and I have never ever been out with anyone, so, this is a bit hard to discuss when I have never been in love.
I guess my first love was Jesus or my mum probably as a baby, my family, my friends I don't even know!!

Well, I hope you enjoyed me not talking about my first love. I really didn't know what to talk about, sorry.

BeeBee
xxx

DAY 18: 30 facts about me

POST 30 FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF

1. My favourite hobbies at the moment are definitely painting and drawing, but I also love to take pictures and watch TV shows and listen to music.
2. My favourite season is summer because I get to wear all my nice clothes and I hate being cold and summer is so pretty with all the greenery and the days seem longer and everyone seems happier in summer.
3. I love the moon and stars.
4. I'm a morning bird and a night owl. Seriously though, I can love the mornings, but I can also become alive at night and I've never decided whether I love sunrises or sunsets more.
5. I want to take a gap year next year and learn to drive.
6. I want to go to university after I've had a gap year.
7. If I ever have children I want to name the girls after flowers.
8. If you didn't know this already, I live in a family of ten.
9. I love trees, they are my favourite thing to take pictures of and my favourite thing to draw.
10. My favourite flower is the sunflower.
11. I've read the whole of the new testament.
12. My favourite book in the bible is John.
13. My favourite verse in the bible is Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God".
14. I've been a Christian for over 9 years.
15. I've decided recently that I don't really want kids, but if God told me to have them, then I would.
16. I've no idea how I'm going to write 30 facts about myself.
17. Salt and vinegar crisps are my favourite.
18. I've been enjoying watching Grimm on Netflix.
19. Romantic Comedies are my favourite movie genre, but crime/detective/mystery/drama is my favourite TV genre.
20. I get bored easily.
21.  I am short-sighted.
22. I'm an extravert, but enjoy time alone.
23. Today was my second day back at college.
24. My most used app is probably Netflix.
25. I am not a fussy eater at all, like you could give me any food, not tell me what it is and I would probably eat it and most likely enjoy it.
26. At the moment I'm reading Amos in the bible, but also going through the first 30 psalms using a devotional.
27. I'm still going strong with this 30-day writing challenge and I'm proud of myself.
28. My favourite feature about myself is my eyes, even if they are really small.
29. My most used emoji is probably the laughing-crying face.
30. I don't know when I decided to become 'BeeBee' it sort of just happened one day.

I hope you enjoyed.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 17: My Favourite colour and why

YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR AND WHY?

Today is supposed to be 'Post About Your Zodiac Sign, And Whether Or Not It Fits You', but, being a Christian, I don't really 'believe' in zodiac signs or I don't really care about them, so I have chosen a different thing to write about today.

I kind of have two favourite colours. The first one is a dark burgundy red. I don't know why I like this colour, it's been my favourite for a long time and I don't remember when it became my favourite. I guess one of the reasons I like it, is simply because it looks good on me, another is that it looks smooth, simple, but pretty at the same time and I don't know, does anyone have a sensible reason why they have a favourite colour?

The second is mustard yellow. Recently I have started getting obsessed with mustard. It might have something to do with the fact that it reminds me of summer, which is my favourite season, it also reminds of sunflowers which is my favourite flower. Yellow reminds me of happiness and I have become so in love with it it has almost overtaken red which is a big thing.

There you are, my favourite colour(s).

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 16: I miss having a pet

SOMETHING YOU MISS

There are lots of things and people I miss, but the thing I am going to talk about is Yoshi the bearded dragon.

In the last two weeks of June and the first two of July, some friends went to America, which meant that they couldn't look after their bearded dragon, this meant that we had the pleasure of looking after her and having a temporary pet. Her name was Yoshi and she was adorable. Having a pet for 4 weeks was the best!

Yoshi was so social and loved coming out of her cage and climbing on your shoulder and moving when you're not looking. Here are some photos to show you just how cute she was.

 

Unfortunately, she had tail rot, so part of me looking after her meant I had to treat her and try to stop the tail rot further damaging her tail until the owners came back (They were informed of the tail rot). She was still adorable and all our family loved her, I was really sad when she had to leave because I really liked having a pet and taking care of an animal. 

Having taken care of Yoshi for 4 weeks and then having to let her go home made me so excited and I still am excited to go back to college and look after all the animals in the animal center.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 15: Summing up my day

BULLET POINT YOUR WHOLE DAY
There is a basic routine for Sundays, so even though it's only the afternoon, I can pretty much tell you the rest of what is going to happen.

• I woke up around half 8 and got ready for church. 
• Left for church around quarter to 10 and when I arrived I helped set up teas and coffee.
• Church was great, with some deep worship, entering the presence of God and hearing a preach from my Dad on Genesis 3.
• Afternoon has been spent relaxing in bed listening to some worship music and carrying on connecting with God throughout the day.
• For dinner we're having a roast and for the vegetarians its pies.
• From around 7 we'll have rooted and we'll be carrying on working on how to remember scripture and use it to trash talk evil.
• We'll get home around 10pm and maybe have a few more chats with each other and then go to bed.

That has been and will be my Sunday of September 15th, 2019.

BeeBee

xxx

Day 14: Movies I never get bored of.

POST YOUR FAVOURITE MOVIES THAT YOU NEVER GET TIRED OF WATCHING 

• Carrie Pilby

It is honestly my favourite movie. I discovered it on Netflix, but it isn't a Netflix original, so I don't really nowhere else you could watch it, but it's basically about this awkward anti-social 19-year-old girl who has a therapist that gives her a small list of 5 easy things to do between Christmas and New year and you watch her complete them. I don't know if I sold it very well, but it's a really good, chill, feel-good movie that is probably in the genre 'romantic comedy', but it is not your average rom-com, trust me. Plus, the ending is one of my favourite endings to a movie ever.

• Narnia

Any of the Narnia movies really. I have watched the first one the most probably and it probably is my favourite, but I love the other ones too. Because I have watched them too many times, I wouldn't choose to watch them, but if they were on or someone else wanted to watch it, or never had, I would happily sit down, cozy up and quote the whole movie while watching it. If you have never seen Narnia, you need to, I'm not going to even explain what it is about, you just need to see it!

• Thor Ragnarok

If you haven't seen at least one Marvel movie in your life, then, well done, I don't know how you've done that. Thor Ragnarok is the third movie in the Thor trilogy. It is my favourite of the three, one, because it just plain hilarious; two, both Loki and Thor are happy in it; three its a happy ending if you don't watch the end scene or the two movies after it. If you want to see Thor Ragnarok, feel free and prepare for a good laugh, you don't really need to see all the Avengers movies to see this one, but if you did want some background to the story, you only really need to see the other two Thors, and probably Avenger: Age of Ultron, but you don't need to see them, even seeing Avengers: Assemble would help a little more, but Thor Ragnarok doesn't need that much background, which is one of the reasons I love it, but the main reason I love it is because it never fails to make me laugh.

• Pitch Perfect

There is something about Pitch Perfect that somehow makes me always want to watch it. The music, the characters, the jokes, it's hilarious and fun and I love it. If you've not watched Pitch Perfect, then what are you doing with your life, watch it, but don't watch the sequels. I've only watched the second one and it was... okay, I guess. I do want to watch it again, just cos, but I've never seen the third one, which is the newest one, apparently, it is worse than the second one, which I'm not surprised by. I do sort of want to watch the third one, but I also don't because I know it's not going to be good like the first one. The first is definitely the best one.

• Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End

I love the Pirates of the Caribbean franchise especially the third one. Don't get me wrong, the first one is the best, but At World's end is my favourite. All the fighting and Jack Sparrow, and the story and all the rivalry and pirates and, kind of, all of it. I mean, It's also really sad with what happens at the end, but the first two movies, everything that builds up in those movies comes to an end in the third one, the third one is the big finale and I love a big finale.

Well, there are my suggestions and the movies I never get bored of, hope you enjoyed.

BeeBee

xxx

DAY 13: I'm Excited For...

WHAT ARE YOU EXCITED ABOUT?

Well being totally honest, not a lot, but I do have college in 4 days.

Seeing my time table for the first two days, I am not excited because I have my least favourite teacher two days in a row, I'm just hoping that the time table has a mistake. Anyway, the one I am excited for is seeing my two best friends that helped me get through last year. They make me laugh all the time and they always cheer me up and make my day. Somehow we didn't make any plans in the summer, so I haven't seen them for 9 weeks and that is far too long. I'm so excited to see them and have lots of laughs and catch up and talk about summers and everything.

What am I excited about? I'm excited to be with my best friends again.

BeeBee

xxx

Day 12: 5 Blessings

WRITE ABOUT FIVE BLESSINGS IN YOUR LIFE.

Five blessings. I could name more than five, but I'll keep to five because that's what it says.

• Family. I feel like this could be a cliche blessing, but seriously. People sometimes ask if I like having a big family, but that is a hard question to answer when you have never known any different, but when I think about it properly, about not having a 'big' family, I know that I would not want it any different. My family and I, we have arguments and fights, but we also make each other laugh all the time and have fun together and I wouldn't want it any other way.
• Friends. If it wasn't for my friends I've made over the years being in Liverpool and at college, I don't think I would have made it through college. All my friends are blessings from God and I praise him for them.
• That we're not persecuted in this country. In our youth group we're going to start going through some open doors stuff. Open Doors is a non-denominational mission supporting persecuted Christians in over 70 countries. I've been reading up on one of the booklets given to us in our youth group, it's a little booklet that gives some testimonies about kids and teens and adults that have stood up for Jesus, knowing full well that they could be persecuted any day, but living for Jesus and having faith in him despite everything. It's so encouraging and inspiring and challenging. As much as I hate the fact that Christians are persecuted all around the world, it also makes me think about my faith, their faith is so strong because of what they go through, and I feel like over here in the west we have a flimsy faith. So I'm saying it is and it isn't a blessing that we don't get persecuted in this country for our faith
• My parents. It may be another cliche, but my parents are so loving and have raised all 8 kids very well. They have always provided food, always allowed us to be and do what we want to do, they've always advised us well and always, always just, loved us. There may be things we do that they disagree with, but they will always advise us and lead us and pray for us and there proud of us and I couldn't ask for better parents.
• Laughing. I love laughing I do count it as a blessing because God created it when he didn't have too, laughing is contagious and fun and I love it. Can you imagine a world without laughter though? It would be awful.

BeeBee

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Day 11: What If...?

SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS THINK "WHAT IF..." ABOUT

What if Adam never ate the fruit?

Well, let's think about it for a second, Genesis 3 says that the serpent talked to the woman and convinced her to eat the fruit, and obviously she had sinned as soon as she did, but Adam had to be convinced by Eve. But then, this is what confuses me right, In verse 6 it says this "Then she gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it, too". If Adam was with her, does that mean he heard the serpent? or was he there after the serpent left? but then again, it never says that the serpent left. Anyway, what if Eve had given the fruit of good and evil to Adam and he had chosen never to eat it. Like what if he was like "Nah Eve, this is wrong, God told us to not eat it". Wouldn't this change things? If Adam hadn't eaten it and Eve had, then one of them sinned and the other didn't. What would this mean for the world? Would the world live in sin or would it not?

I've asked this question twice in my youth group, but I don't think I can remember the answers. One of the things I do remember is there obviously isn't a definitive answer, it's all, what if, but I do remember one of the things said. 

In verse 7 of the NIV version, it says "Then the eyes of both of them were opened" which gives the impression that the eyes were only opened once both of them ate the fruit, in other versions, it says 'at that moment', 'suddenly', 'and the eyes...' etc. So, the kind of answer is that, maybe, if Adam hadn't eaten the fruit, then their eyes wouldn't have been opened? I don't really know, to be honest, it's all one big if!

BeeBee

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Day 10: A big complaint

WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING FOR WHICH YOU FEEL STRONGLY

Most of my life I have said that I don't want to be a vet, but that I do want to work with animals, so the other suggestions have always been like, 'oh you gonna be a zookeeper then' and then I've always been like 'Eh, maybe, I don't really know, maybe an animal rescue or something'. Recently though I was having a conversation with a friend about life and where to go next and what job I should get and I started to realize that a zookeeper is nothing at all what I want to do, and here is why...

Zoos keep animals captive, but God made animals to be wild and free. I get that some animals are going extinct and are endangered and that keeping them in zoos can sometimes be of help, and don't get me wrong, I can love a good zoo trip, but after being in college and learning all about animal health and behaviour, when I go to a zoo now, I start noticing all these things in the animals that aren't healthy. I'll be in the rhino area or the lion area and I'll start seeing them pacing or going around in circles and it makes me so sad. When an animal paces, it can mean that they are bored or stressed. Pacing or circling, or other abnormal behaviours is a coping mechanism, but also a form of self-harm. I haven't seen these in zoos, but for more information, abnormal behaviours can include, abnormal eating, such as carnivores eating greens; it can also be animals excessively scratching or grooming themselves, biting on the bars of a cage; it can even include abnormal aggression where an animal gets in a fight for no obvious reason and there are more, but that's not what I'm here for. 

Back to the zoo topic. If an animal is showing abnormal behaviours, it means that they don't have enough space or aren't put in right social groups, such as, I will sometimes see tigers in groups of two in a zoo, even though they are solitary animals and even lions, though they will be put with other lions, in the wild they will live in a pride of like 14 or so, though I do know that you probably can't keep that many lions in the same enclosure, but you could at least give a small pride of lions a big space. 

You see for me, its okay to help the population of an animal species, like you can help them get better, but then set them free again. Rescue zoos are fine, rescue centers are fine, but zoos and safaris, places that keep animals that belong in the wild, captive, not okay, they are most likely not happy there. Animals that have been captive for too long and then cannot survive in the wild, yes, they can stay in zoos, but animals that are very capable of living in the wild, just set them free.

Well that's my complaint about captive animals over, hope you enjoyed or didn't, whatever, I don't really care.

BeeBee

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Day 9: Words of Wisdom

POST SOME WORDS OF WISDOM THAT SPEAK TO YOU

I don't know any 'words of wisdom' off by heart or any that particularly 'speak' to me, but I have a Pinterest board full of phrases and quotes that inspire me or encourage me or that I just like, so here we go.

• "Stay colourful babe."
• "The best way is always through." - Robert Frost
• "Home-school. Preparing for life, not a test."
• "Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying I will try again tomorrow."
• "Whatever you do, never run back to what broke you." - Frank Ocean
• "You only get one life. It's actually your duty to live it as fully as possible." - Me Before You
• "Every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being redirected to something better." - Dr. Steve Maraboli
• "Joy does not simply happen to us. We must choose joy."

I hope you enjoyed those little inspirational 'words of wisdom'.

BeeBee

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Day 8: Something I struggle with

SHARE SOMETHING YOU STRUGGLE WITH

Believing I can do it. This year is my last year of college, and this coming February I will turn 18, which means I will be an 'adult' and honestly, it is scaring the heck out of me. I have always struggled with change and the future scares me because I have no idea what is coming. I feel like as an adult you have to make changes, do lots of new things, which I don't mind as much, but you have to also make lots of decisions and start doing things that are scary. First of all, when I finish college, I would like to take a gap year. In my gap year, I hope to be earning money and start learning to drive, if I've not managed to get a job while in college, then during my gap year, I would like to get a job, but I also want to go to Uni, which means I will then have to start thinking about which uni I want to go to and start applying to them and everything and it's all very scary to me. 

I am afraid to do all these things because I don't believe I can do them. I don't trust myself to do things right. During my work experience in April, whenever I got asked to do something, something that I had even done before, I was always afraid I was doing it wrong, I would be afraid of being stupid or making a stupid decision or someone having to go and do the job again because I did it wrong. Not being able to do a simple thing that someone asks me without doubting myself, really makes me worry about some of these adulting things I'm going to have to start doing soon.

You see, I really want a job, but I keep making excuses to myself and putting myself down and procrastinating even trying to look for a job because every time I think about having to apply for one I always start thinking like, 'I'm really unqualified', 'I feel like my CV isn't good enough', or 'I won't be confident enough in an interview' or 'I won't be able to answer one of the questions in an interview' or something along the lines of that. I might be being stupid and I just need to get off my lazy ass and apply for one and get over the fear, but it's easier said than done. Sometimes I feel so incapable because I can't even get in touch with anyone to apply for a job.

I have never had a job, or even applied for one, so everything is new to me, which is why I'm so scared about everything, but I know God has a plan and I completely trust in Him and His plan for me, and I will keep on praying for peace in the subject and I will keep on praying that when I do eventually apply for a job, that it will be the right one. I know that also has to be something I do, but that won't stop me praying for God's hand in it.

Well, there you go, something I struggle with = change and adulting.

BeeBee

xxx

Day 7: 10 songs I'm loving right now

LIST 10 SONGS YOU'RE LOVING RIGHT NOW
(In no particular order)

1. Awakening by Amanda Lindsey Cook. This song Came out when I had finished college and I had recently come out of a difficult time in my life, the lyrics were basically what I had felt and gone through during that time and this song was literally an 'awakening' for me. I have probably listened to it excessively, but it is still one of my favourite songs.
2. Love Song by Elle Limebear. I have recently discovered this artist and this is one of my favourites, it's also a nice funky tune.
3.  Inner Ninja by Classified featuring Olly Murs. This is also a funky tune, I discovered this song when I was in the mood for some nostalgic Olly Murs tunes and I really enjoyed it.
4. Real Thing by Maverick City music featuring Dante Bowe. Maverick City music is a beautiful artist, they brought out their first EP this year and Real Thing is one of the songs included. I love it because of the lyrics, but also their voices are beautiful as well and I could listen to them all day.
5. The Sound of Silence cover by Disturbed. For some reason I have discovered that I really enjoy this song, particularly this version, it's a pretty powerful song you know?
6. Close To Home by Joe Dolman. I actually discovered this artist from a Spotify add. I started listening to his music, and on one of the live albums he talks about this song 'Close To Home' and he explains how the song came about and what it's about and mentions that there is a music video on youtube for it. So, naturally, I go and watch this music video and cry, lots. The song is kind of about having dementia and so, in the music video, you have all these people with family members or friends that have been affected by dementia talking about how it's affected them and their behaviour and everything, and it made me sob. The music video is powerful and beautiful and sad and good. If you have 3 minutes of spare one day, go watch this music video.
7.  Returns by NF. NF is a sick rapper all together, but this song off of his new album I love. I love the lyrics and the beat and I almost know all the words.
8. Pieces by Bethel. To be honest, I always love this song, there will probably never come a day when I don't love this song.
9. Evergreen reimagined by Amanda Lindsey Cook. The song 'Evergreen' came out when Amanda released her new album, but the other day she released a 'reimagined' version and it's banging' tune!
10. Rollercoaster by Jonas Brothers. I think this is such a chill vibes kind of song.

I appreciate all these songs, so if you ever need new music, I recommend them, and the artists named. Hope you all have a good rest day.

BeeBee

xxx

Day 6: 5 ways to win my heart

LIST 5 WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART

1. First, have a heart for God
2. Have a pet
3. Make me laugh
4. Push me to do things I think I can't
5. Make me jump 

BeeBee

xxx

Day 5: 5 places I want to visit

LIST 5 PLACES YOU WANT TO VISIT

1. Disneyland - Or any of the Disney places. I've never been and I feel like it's one place everyone has to go at some point in their life.
2. The Island of Guadeloupe - It is where one of the TV shows I like is filmed and it just looks really pretty.
3. Nazareth - I mean this is where Jesus lived and walked.
4. Italy - Either Rome or Florence or both. I mean Rome because its the capital and all the buildings are so cool and I think it would be quite an interesting and historic place to visit. Florence because, I don't know, maybe because Venice would be my other choice, but there is so much water in Venice.
5. Rio. Wouldn't it just be a super cool place to go, with all the festivities and crazy lights and beautiful waters, I think it would a fantastic holiday.

I want to go to many places, so these are only a few, but it might be quite difficult for me to travel if I want to have lots of pets. 😞

BeeBee

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Day 4: Someone who inspires me

WRITE ABOUT SOMEONE WHO INSPIRES YOU.

I don't really know who inspires me, lots of people inspire me in a different way. I feel like an obvious answer would be Jesus because of the way He lived when He was on the earth and because we should strive to be more like him, but I don't want to talk about Jesus, I want to talk about various people that inspire me.

• My parents

They inspire me in their marriage, it has obviously not always been easy for them, you know having eight kids and all, but they have always worked together and as of Monday, they have now been together for a good strong 24 years. They have raised us all really well, while still always putting their faith and trust in God and loving each other and finding quiet times to spend with only each other. I hope that when I am married, I, for one don't have as many kids, but that I can love my husband with God in the centre of our relationship.

• Steffany Gretzinger

I don't know her personally, she is just a Christian singer I listen too, but I also follow her on Instagram, I have also watched her preach a couple times online. It's mainly her passion that inspires me. When I watch her preach, or I'm listening and watching her lead a worship session at her church, the passion that she carries for Christ is so inspiring. It also shows on her Instagram, she doesn't post that often, but when she does, its either about glorifying God or talking about her beautiful daughter. The mother she is also inspires me, even though recently I have sort of decided I don't really want kids, the way Steffany encourages her daughter and has raised her daughter (from what I see on social media), makes me think that if I ever did have kids, I would want to raise my kid a little like hers.

• My older brother, Joel

Joel is now living in London, but over the last two years, he has done quite a lot. Joel inspires me because of the way he follows Jesus and God's calling for him. I know there have been struggles for him, I probably don't even know half of them, but what I do know is that he has had faith in God and worshipped in every circumstance. From what I see, Joel puts all his energy and time in doing what God has called him too, I also hear of his love and need for God in the songs he writes. I feel like, I want to have this much passion in what God calls me to do, and even have that much passion and use all my energy in what God has for me right now.

They are just some of the people who inspire me, but there are many more that I could have named, such as my sisters, my best friends, my grandparents, and more.

BeeBee

xxx

Day 3: Pet peeves

WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 3 PET PEEVES?

1. People who leave plug sockets on when there is nothing plugged in, like, why are you leaving it on, there is no need!!! If I am in a room and there are empty plug sockets turned on, I have to go and turn them all off. I must admit, sometimes I do it with my own phone charger next to my bed, I'll unplug my phone in the morning and accidentally leave the socket on, when I realize, I give myself a little slap.
2. When people are drinking their coffee, get to the end of it, and then leave that last little mouthful in the bottom. It really irritates me because, 1, just drink it, yes it might be slightly bitter and cold, but it's just one last bit; 2, when people come to clean it up, especially when it comes to putting it in a dishwasher if they don't see the last bit at the bottom, then they get splashed with gross coffee; 3, If it doesn't get cleaned up soon, then the last little mouthful, in the bottom of the mug, goes stale and gross and you have to scrub it to get it off because it's stuck to the bottom. Basically, the bottom line is, drink the whole cup of coffee and don't leave that little bit at the bottom of the mug :)
3. People who put clothes on their dogs (or any animal). I get that it can look really cute and we do put coats and waterproofs on them when taking them for a walk, and that's fine if it's a small dog with a thin fur coat because you wanna keep it warm, but putting hats on them or dressing them up in Christmas jumpers or skirts or whatever else, it really gets to me. I'll be watching videos and first off, I'll be thinking that, yeah, it's cute, but then I'll kind of say to myself, yeah now get the clothes off, its stupid and cruel. I don't get people who dress their animals up, it's weird.

BeeBee

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Day 2: Something I never forgot

WRITE SOMETHING THAT SOMEONE TOLD YOU ABOUT YOURSELF THAT YOU NEVER FORGET

It was a Sunday and we were about to leave for church. I was coming down the stair, my older brother going up the stairs, as he passed me, he told me that I smelt nice. I had put perfume on that morning, but I did most Sunday evenings. Anyway, my older brother continued on, saying that I have a 'unique' smell, like you know when someone always smells the same, like someone's house smells of a certain thing and it then kind of sticks with you and the smell never really changes, and then you associate that smell to that person or household. That is basically what my brother was saying, that I have a nice smell and that if and when I get a boyfriend that my smell could be my boyfriend's favourite thing about me. 

I don't know if that is a really random thing to remember or even share, but I didn't know what else to write about, so there you go. 

BeeBee

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30 day writing challenge: Day 1

I was scrolling through Pinterest today, looking for something to draw, when I then came across a 30 day writing challenge. I was reading through the ideas for the 30-day challenge and I decided that as it is the first of September today, that it would be pretty cool to do it through the whole of September. I am enjoying writing my blog at the moment and I thought it would be a cute and interesting thing to do. I don't go back to college until the 16th either, so it will give me something to do each day instead of having nothing to do. Well, we'll see if I can keep it up and how it goes, shall we?

Day 1: List 10 things that make you really happy. 

(In no particular order)

1. Laughing - It may sound silly, like of cause laughing makes you happy, but honestly I would love to laugh all day and every day with the people I love.
2. Getting up early - This may also sound silly, but If I get up as soon as I've woken up, I feel so much happier and healthier throughout the day, it doesn't necessarily have to be 'early', but as long as I'm not going on my phone as soon as I've woken up, I feel a whole lot better through the day.
3. Sun/Summer - Doesn't the summer just make everyone that little bit more positive though? 
4. Clear night skies - I love night time just as it is, but when its a clear sky and you're in the countryside where there are no city lights and you can see a shining moon whether crescent or full or half a moon, along with many stars that fill the sky, whoo, I could stare at a starry night sky until sunrise.
5. Animals - Specifically animals in the wild and animals that have been saved and get set free. Any wildlife, rabbits, singing birds, frogs, sea creatures, etc, they make me feel happy that God created them and they are here for us to look after.
6. Church - Whatever mood I'm in, Going on a Sunday, to spend time with my church family always puts a smile on my face, being able to worship God with them and simply be with them makes me happy.
7. Spending time with God - Now, spending time with God isn't always a happy time, sometimes it makes me cry and other times it can make me a bit mad and I can have an argument and battle with God, but at the end of my time with God I always feel happy of some sorts and I don't ever love or feel His love less.
8. Socializing - Whether I'm socializing with new people or friends or family, I just love it and always feel great after I have. I'll come back from a day with friends or go to sleep after a chat with someone and feel happy and like I could carry on talking with them for ages.
9. Dancing - A bit like socializing, once you got me hyped and there are some good banging tunes on, I could dance through the whole night, although I probably would crash eventually.
10. New clothes - I mean, let's be real for a sec, as much as God says not to get attached to earthly things, there are some pretty cool and cozy clothes out there.

This 30-day writing challenge, I hope, will be a good way for you to get to know me a bit better as well as being a fun little project for me to do through September and then read back on in the future. Well, until tomorrow...

BeeBee

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